2009....

Compared to yr 2008, entry for 2009 sangatlah tak menggairahkan, only 123 entries.

Even my visitors statistic for 2009, it was awfully menyedihkan. Blog yg terbengkalai most of the times aderlah reasons why it happened.

Year 2009, terlalu banyak perkara yg berlaku sehingga menyebabkan moralle menyepi, sekejap ade sekejap takder. What had happened made me a stronger person in life thou its difficult for me to handle the situations most of the times. I've neglected most of my activities that I love all this while, neglected all my luvly frens in cyber and reality, M sorry for what I did and I really regretted it, thinking what had I done to my own life, and its not worth at all doing all those things that hurt me more.

Berakhir sudah perjalanan pahit yg moralle lalui in 2009...........mudah-mudahan yr 2010 will make me a stronger and better person.

“Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

...THE APPLIANCES ARE DEAD...

Salam all, hrmmmm bersawang nowadays my blog ni..........frankly speaking, for the past few mths my conditions is really down and I hv no interesting story at all to share, so as n when I feel ok, I'll try my best ya to update.

Last week, these things in my house are dead and need to change for good. Bayangkan, satu persatu rosak, macam owner dia yg lagi dilanda ribut taufan.

So I hv to buy new ones to replace the old ones...................is it true that anything that is old is meaningless and replacement needed.

"Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish"..................the best I could relate to what I'm feeling right now.

thou no updates here, do visit here for more interesting updates by the vogue-u

REALITY.......KENYATAAN

Arent reality sucks................"kenyataan"...............it hurts deeply to know the truth.

Commiting suicide....................is it jalan keluar dalam semua permasaalahan.....kematian dengan membunuh diri, dimurka Allah dan termasuklah kamu di golongan orang-orang yg kafir, subhanallah........

I hv learnt something in life, kematangan diri menghadapi segala dugaan kehidupan, kejujuran dan keikhlasan diri untuk menerima, memberi dan yg terunggul, to face the reality, kenyataan sebuah kehidupan.

INSPIRATIONAL THOUGHTS

A Lesson in Life

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere.

If someone hurts you, betrays you , or breaks you heart, forgive them. For they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to who you open your heart to.

If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.

Make every day count. Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again.

Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it.

MY BREAKFAST TODAY....

Morning ewibody, hv u all taken the most important meal of the day........haha very poyo seh ayat-ayat cinta ni.............

I had mine, nasi lemak and coffee :)

Ahhhhh, I missed eating rice, so, since this morning makcik canteen had the nasi lemak ready, aper lagi, terus beli.

I didnt eat rice not because I'm on strict diet , but since I took the Habbatus Saudah, my apetite to eat rice or heavy stuffs agak berkurangan. Sumtimes I can do without rice for at least 2 days ya........since than I had lost 5 kgs..........believe it or not, 2 mths of HS I lost 5kgs.

Not only the HS had made me lost weight, my weekly Bhangrarobic also helped me alot in losing weight and the most important issues here is to release all my stressed and mencari ketenangan jiwa selain dari mendekatkan lagi diri dengan ALLAH...............

SALAM

Assalammualaikum untuk semua...............moralle alhamdulillah, sihat dan masih mencari-cari aper yg di cari....

Thanks to all yg memberi comments, yg merindui dan yg memberi kata nasihat serta perangsang pada moralle.

Insyaallah ader kesempatan me will update n share my stories with uols as usual...........and also uols sila-silakan lah bertandang ke rumah moralle yg baru yer bersama kerabat-kerabat moralle yg vogue :)

But this doesnt means moralle.blogspot tak kan active lagi, tetap active selagi owner nyer masih bernyawa.....................

DO VISIT US AT : //vogue-u.blogspot.com

...PERPISAHAN SEMENTARA...

Dear frens, I will be away for a while....

I'm not going away forever, I need to be alone, I need to stay strong, I need lots n lots of doa's from all of u........please doakan yg terbaik for me.........

love u all always :)

...FRIDAY YG EMO...

Yes its Friday, tomorrow is already weekends.

Why I nak emo-emo, well, bukan maukan perhatian ya, sajer nak emo kat blog sendiri. Thou I dont want to blog about it, but I still want to write it here in my blog that my mood today is very very emo, let me keep it to myself watever the issues is.

Hopefully I feel better tonight after meeting my dearie dearie fwens.

"HAPPY WKENDS TO ALL"

...5 YRS...

Its my 5 yrs with the company, what did I get from my dearest boss????????? wait ha...lets story mory other stories dulu yer.

C this boy, 2 days berturut-turut was with me in the office, but of course by 12.30 I dah send him to school. Yesterday Umi ader medical appt, I need to bring him to the office with me. Aqil memang suka follow ibu gi office, macam-macam dia geledah n main kalau at my office, to him macam very enjoyable n seronok gitew.

But why I brought him to the office today ???....my boss requested me to bring him today, he wants to belanja Aqil Nasi Lemak, hehe.

Yesterday he asked Aqil if he likes Nasi Lemak, Aqil told him yes, than at 4pm yesterday he called me from outside, he asked me to bring Aqil to work today.

I actually surprised jugak, si tua ni tup tup baik sangat ngan anak aku, aper motif ek ????

So today, he really went to buy Nasi Lemak for everyone here in the office + productions, famous Nasi Lemak from Adam Road and 1 additional packet for Aqil.

After makan, I siap-siapkan Aqil, its already 12.30, Aqil start school at 1pm.

When I was about to leave, my boss handed me this :) :) :) :))))))))

I was quite surprised, macam terperanjat u c, normally we will have lunch outside if there is occasions for the company, but today I received Ang Pow from him.

To cut it short, the Nasi Lemak he bought for all is so called a small party for me gitew + the Ang Pow, how much is inside.............hmmmmmmm.........alhamdulillah.........cukup untuk shopping ++++ kot, hahaha.

So for my 5 yrs with the Company no expensive lunch or watsoever, but Ang Pow I got from him so that I can spend my wkends with a big smile.

That is a good Friday for me, alhamdulillah, bersyukur kepada ALLAH kerana telah memberikan hambamu rezki ini, AMINNNNNNNNNNNN.

"HAPPY WKENDS TO ALL, MUACHHHSSSSSSSSSS"

...FORTUNE COOKIES...

Oooooooooo boshan giler seyyyy sitting around doing nothing....thou there are things to do, but I'm pretending not to be bzzzzzzzzz.

Boss came in this morning, then when I left at 12.30 to send Aqil to school, he pun chow sama.....n till now tak balik lagi, so looks like he will not be back.

I have to bring Aqil to work today, Umi need to go to hospital for day surgery so since no body can look after him, terpaksalah he join me at the office today, okay lah jugak, office pun masih sunyi sepi, with his mulut yg kecoh tak lah sunyi sangat.

my new staff playing computer game

Oh lupa pasal Fortune Cookies pulak. Yesterday after fetched Aqil from Umi house, we went to Vista Point, I bought some dishes for dinner, biaser lah, lazy to cook....than went to 7-Eleven to buy bread and jajan for Aqil.

Since its Lunar New Year, 7-Eleven is having this so called free goodies, Golden Fortune cookies. Every customer will be given 1 pkt of the cookies.


So when I reached home, I opened the Fortune Cookies................broke it into two...... you will c a piece of paper with your fortune written on it..........hehehe...

So what's mine.................let'c

Insyaallah, hopefully our love (me n hubby) will blossom forever and ever, "till death do us part", I will have a blossoming frenship with all my frens cyber or not, and also blossoming love with all my family, AMINNNNN......

HAPPY WKEND TO ALL

...YUHUUUU...

Assalammualaikum, hi hi, hello hello to all yg ku cinta, ku kasih, ku sayang, ku puja, ku rindu :)

Its sunday morning, while everyone are already in dreamland, me membuak-buak nak update, but sikit jer dulu, intro jer k. Very sleepy and tired, just finished doing hantaran yg someone ordered last minute, nak tolak pity, so since only 2 dulang, I tolong lah jugak.

Moralle menyepi since few days ago kerana bersebab, I hv been bz at work, really bz and having slight problem with relationship at work, I dont really want to talk about it. Because of this I hv not been to well, everything berantakan, my high blood pun up and down almost everyday but alhamdulillah I can controlled it and its under controlled.

I nearly nearly decided to stop blogging, why???????????? me myself not sure. Probably to tired I guessed, but what am I going to do after I stop blogging, lost my cyber frens, lost my happiness in blogging and the worst my life will not be as happy as now with frens who cared so much about me in this cyber world.

And today, I changed my mind again and again, I akan perjuangkan moralle blogspot ni selagi termampu dan selagi masih bernyawa.

Now I'm really really week to type, my eyes dah sooooooooo sleepy, I'll stop here and will continue again when I dah segar bugar...........ader story mory nak cito cito...........I'll c uols again, muachhhssssssssss.................

...I'M TIRED...

I've been so tired, tired with lots of things, especially with work. May be my doctor is right, I really need a rest and a break for a while, the stressed and all is going to make me suffer.

Going to let go of my stress this wkend for sure, meeting bloggers from KL, JB and also Singapore of course.

Thought of taking long leave but leave pun dah tak der, left with 2 more days only, just enough to cover for Aqil doctor appt at KK on the 26th and one more day probably before the new year.

Btw, my sunday was tiring also, I woke-up around 10am, did my cooking, vac the house and washed clothes. I left to Andalus at 2pm with Aqil, fetched my fren, she pun needs to purchase books for his son, dah settle semua we all lepak kejap at Admiralty food court, my fren belanja teh tarik n rojak mamak, chot chet a while than we went home.

Reached home macam keletihan betul, my energy ni tak macam dulu lah, kejap jer dah felt macam so tired.......lack of vitamins ker, or may b my sickness yg buat I camni.........

Lucky all housework semua dah settled, ingatkan nak lie down lah kejap, but Umi n Abi came, they just came back from Geylang, Umi belikkan I kuih-muih from Geylang. Abi belek-belek buku Madrasah Aqil n baru lah I realized penjual buku tu gave me the wrong book....he gave me tadika 2, patutnye Aqil will be in tadika 1 for madrasah next yr, lucky lah Abi checked if not leceh nak kenek tukar kat Toa Payoh....jauh kan. After Umi n Abi left I pun called Andalus, its already 4.30, they asked me to come straight away since the guy is still there....apelagi kelam kabut I drive there to change. Baru nak relaks dah kenek rushed keluar lagi to change the book....really exhausted seyyyy....

Reached home dah almost 5.30, kelam kabut suruh the kids mandi and siap-siap........we are going out to CP to look for the camping things...........at 6pm, we went down to wait for hubby...than off to CP.

Ya ampun, dah lah tak sedap badan, CP so crowded with people, here n there sales going on, Giordano, Bossini on 50% sales, metro n JL pun on sales, up to 20%.............betul-betul sesak, nak try-try baju pun so leceh, long queue at the fitting room...........round n round ended we only bought red T-shirt for the girls and myself at Bossini, hmmmm alrite lah jugak for the camping, red for Sunday :), Saturday blue.............pakai jer lah aper yg ader, nak jalan-jalan lagi dah tak larat.

For Aqil we bought for him blue n red T-shirt from JL, hubby dont need to, he has it already. Around 8pm we left CP n singgah Umi house a while to settle Aqil bday photos...Abi is going to develop it for us first, so we need to choose the photos, banyak wooo photos, tak kan nak develop semua, bleh pengsan bayar nanti.

we left Umi house at 9.30 than before balik, singgah lagi to my MIL house, tapi tak naik pun, amik barang jer kat void deck...........my BIL bought for the kids some titbits, ayamas n french fries, my MIL nak datang hantar but I was out kan so she suruh we all collect jer from her place.

Singgah sana , singgah sini, at last sampai rumah at 10.30pm..............ponat nyer, letih nyer. tak larat lah badan ni...........

Took our late dinner, than went to zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............

Thats my Sunday, tired sunday n today tiring Monday...................updating this entry pun I macam tak larat.............but still nak update.......................

Nite nite............another day tomorrow...........cepat lah coti, tak sabar nak rest & relaks to ilangkan stresss di jiwa raga ni.

...I M OKAY...

Oh ya, I m okay, I just need that 1 minute this afternoon to release the tension......not work, not frens.........its someone who I respected so much and someone that I thought I could rely on, who can be there for me when I need one, mother love..........yes a mother love.

News that I heard this afternoon made me burst with anger and never thought that someone I respected so much stood so low now in my life...........I lost my respect towards her, I'm just going to shut for now, I'm too tired with all the drama that she had created. It has been 19yrs, I had enough of it.

Whatever it is, I'm not going to let her ruin my life n my family and I hope that one day she will change for good, insyaAllah.

And at this moment, how I wished my own mom is still around so that I could run to her n cry on her lap, I missed every moments spent with her, mudah-mudahan roh mak di cucuri rahmat, AMINNNN.

Thanks again to uols, I m feeling ok now, I'm not going to let someone ruined my life dengan kata-kata kesat dan tomahan yg tak bermakna.

...WRECKING WKEND....

I'M BOREDDDDDDD, REALLY BOREDDDDDDDDDDD...

WHAT A WEEKEND, ITS REALLY SUCKSSSSSSSSS

NO DISCUSSIONS AT ALL, NO LAPPY AT ALL, EVERYTHING WAS A DISASTER..........

OH GOD, U R TESTING ME RIGHT NOW.......AND I M GOING TO ACCEPT WATEVER U HV FOR ME, THOU ITS BREAKING MY HEART.............

I'm asking this myself, I know its silly, in life, why must there be unhappy moments, cant we always be happy, all the time.........

OMG!!!!!!!! I'm acting like someone who lost its mind........to think that in life we will always be happy ....... but there are right ??? people who are always happy..........alwayzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

...SHOTTTT....SHATTTT...

Feeling moody today, I think my best fren yg forever and ever ni dah nak sampai kot.....hopefully still can wait until after buka puasa....sayang wooooo, its already 2.45pm.

Since morning, the symptoms all are there, but up to now tak da cite pun......bukan nyer aper, ever happened, in fact 2 yrs berturut-turut, dah nak dekat2 buka pulak baru dia mai......

The weather here pun very hot hot, me pun hot hot betul today, getting hotter with my tummy aching, pinggang aching and kepala fening.........hmmm tak syokkkk betul lah today.

Please excuse me, I've got to lie down a while, not really lie down but lie my head on my table, lucky me big man gone out and will not be back for today :)

...PAUSED.....CONTINUE...

Assalammualaikum and good day to all :)

Today its another bz day for me as usual. When I was typing this entry my boss is still not in, probably on the way but I'm hoping that he will not comes in like yesterday (had to paused and saved) .........the old man is already in, now he is out a while, so I continue again lah, hehehe......

Why workload at the office never ends kan, can someone please explain why ????????? Thou I hv someone to assist but still and it seems that my works are still the same, am I not efficient enough ??? dont think so, I am very very efficient weiiiii :) or I dont know hw to prioritize ??? not true also..........well work is still work, if not bz than something is not right somewhere.............

Yesterday, menu for my buka very very simple , I didnt cook instead went to buy on the way home. I bought daging goreng halia, kailan goreng, kacang sambal, mee goreng and epok2 sardines.

Ingatkan nak cook, but at 4pm yesterday I had stomach ache pulak, like stomach flue, tahan punya tahan, alhamdullillah berkat bulan puasa, dapat bertahan sampai buka.

Berbuka pun I didnt really ate, caused my stomach really not feeling good, sampai ke malam I got stomach flu. When hubby came back, I'm still awake sebab tak boleh nak tidur.

Than hubby gave me medication for stomach ache, sapukan minyak bagai barulah boleh tidur. May b nak kenek hubby manjakan dulu baru boleh sleep tak, hehehe..........

Sahur this morning pun I dont feel like eating anything, just ate cereals a bit + coffee. I hv to drink at least a bit of coffee if not I will fall asleep at work nanti. Normally will share with hubby the coffee during sahur.

Alhamdulillah now I felt better thou macam still sebu jer my stomach ni, mudah-mudahan dapat bertahan hingga ke waktu berbuka nanti, insyaallah.

..RELAXING SEKEJAP...

Now only managed to go to blogger website to relaxs my mind, blog hopping pun tak habis lagi..........

Since morning I've been bz with tons and tons of things and untill now also tak habis lagi ):

2nd day of Ramadhan, weather pun cooling not so bad, but my head ni macam spinning pulak, not sure why, ni semua cobaannnnnnnnn.............

I dont know what to story mory, nothing interesting except that I am super duper excited for tomorrow.

Tonight I ade project sikit, project memunggah my album to search photos for tomorrow :) uols sudi-sudikan lah menjenguk my blog if u hv the time 2moro k...........

Back to work now sambil thinking what to cook today for buka puasa...........or should I just buy, only me and the kids, hubby on afternoon shift this wk, cian kiter ):

...HI HI, NO UPDATES...

Hye all, I dont hv anything interesting to update lah. Just came in to the office. I was on 1/2 day morning leave, need to go for my routine blood test. Actually its supposed to be next month but I requested to bring forward caused next mth kan dah Ramadhan. The results will be out on Monday, so Monday I wont be in the office.

Okay lah now I'm trying to blog hop a while than need to do my work yg sememangnyer tak pernah habis ):

Cheerssssssss, n good day to all, di sini hujan lebat bangetttttttt, the weather so cold...........

NICE PHRASES

Invite others towards good with wisdom. Live life with no excuse and love with no regrets. When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear.

Great men say, 'Life has to be an incessant process of repair and reconstruction, of discarding evil and developing goodness. In the journey of life, if you want to travel without fear, you must have the ticket of a good conscience.

'The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling And even more beautiful is, knowing that you are the reason behind it!!!

.... SMILING MONDAY....

Sunny Monday :) , alhamdulillah I'm feeling better. Thou the cough is still not totally gone, but at least I felt better compared to last week.

I felt very touched and bersyukur sangat having this blog of mine. When I'm happy there are frens who congratulate me with my happiness, when I'm sad lots of warm encouragement given to me to stay strong and bersabar, when I'm sick, I hv frens that care and berdoa for my speedy recovery. Ya allah, amat tak terhingga kesyukuran hamba mu ini, di kelilingi orang-orang yg mengambil berat dan menyayangi ku.

Thanks again to all my dearie frens, thanks for all the doas for me, hug and kisses from me, muachhssss..........

I hv nothing much to update on my wkends activities. I spend my time at home beristirehat secukup-cukupnya. Time to cook I cooked, time to berkemas I berkemas, but after that its all relaxing and watching TV, reading story book and sleep. I managed to finished one of the story book I bought during the NLB sale, its a good story. Life of a married couple, its about a wife who loves the hubby that much that she did not see his true colour, until one day when she knew that she had loved the wrong man and she fought all the way to get her life back.

Chow now, got to do my work first and will update later what happened this morning :)

MY FRIDAY MORNING..............

The past few days are really foolished and iritating day for me.

This morning I'm so lazy to wake-up, drag myself to work and when I reached office I lagi felt bored.

Early morning someone iritate me and made me angry for nothing, si Pak Sapam.............

I had to arrange a parcel to Malaysia, Perak. Before that I need to check the cost for the shipment and advise my cutomer if they are agreeable with the cost. So I called OCS, I called thrice, someone pick-up the phone, but when I say HELLO, no one answer me.

Than I called another number, someone pick-up :

Me : Hello, OCS
Someone : Yes
Me : I want to send a parcel to Malaysia, i need to check the cost
Someone : Oh, who u want to meet
Me : No, not meet, I want to check cost of parcel to Perak, can u transfer to customer service
Someone : Oh, this is condominium
Me : What!!!!!!!!!! ok than, I got the wrong no, can you also next time listen carefully

So, bayangkan betapa bingit nye I pagi-pagi lagi dah kenek ngan Pak Sapam yg pekak.

Really too much right, cant get things right these few days. Lucky tomorrow is Friday, I really dont want to spoil my wkend..........

CITER KANTOI.................SO MALU..........

Very angry today, not sure with who, with myself.............. daydreaming..........dreaming about getting a beautiful bright colour slim LAPTOP ):

I came to office a bit late, need to go to post-office and cash out $$$$$$$$$ for company.

So, after I finished at the post-office at Civic Centre, I walked to Causeway Point. The bank is at CP, OCBC.

Is there a bank that opens at 11am ??????????? I need to cash out a chq from customer, so the nearest is at CP. I thought it opens at 9am, the normal timing, I pun terkedek-kedek walk to CP takut nanti ramai lah manusia.

When I reached the bank, this is the best part. I thought its already open, I saw the lighting was on, very bright, I saw a policeman standing with 2 to 3 guys near the ATM machine inside the bank, but I didnt c any people queing at the counter. I was telling myself "ooooo syok not crowded at all, very empty", and I m telling myself also "funny, how come so empty".

Then without any hesitation but happy, "gedebukkkkk, gedebanggggggg", OMG!!!! the sliding glass door is still lock. I looks really stupid at that time, imagine there are few guys inside the bank standing at the ATM machines, and there I am trying to go in but I cant. Instead my forehead bang on the stupid sliding door. The only words that came out from my mouth is "Shittttttttttttttttt"

Okay I'm already very malu, dah tak tentu arah and haluan, nak maintained punya pasal, action took out my HP and action talking over the phone in front of the stupid door. But not talking to anybody, purposely wanted to act a bit lah, cause dah very malu.

While acting near the glass door, than I read the bank opening hrs on the door. Opens from 11am to 5pm. But there is no signage if its close or open, the light was very bright, I saw 2 to 3 people at the ATM machines with 2 police officers inside, so what was I thinking at that time ??????????? Its already OPENNNNNNNNNN....................

Hmmmmmmm I am very very angry and malu okayyyyyyyyy, never had I encountered this kind of incident. I was in a hurry, didnt check properly before I go in, expected the bank already open, didnt thought of anything when I didnt c anyone at the counter. When I felt a bit coooooool, I walk off slowly than, larikkkkkkkkkkkkkk.............

At the end, I didnt cash out the chq, I was hit by the glass door, I was very-very malu.

What a morning, all the way back to office I was laughing at myself, why am I so gong-gong, never check properly first before I want to go in, never crossed my mind that the 2 guys is the bank officer with the Police man to guard them while topping up the ATM machines, and never even crossed my mind that the bank is still close, if its already open how come its not crowded as usual, oh goshhhhhhhhhhhh, what am I thinking ????????????????

Reached office, I told Matilda the whole story, she syok-syok laugh at me to ):