HI HI ASSALAMMUALAIKUM...

Helloooo...haizzzz hw come eh malazzz betul nak berblog...really tau, tak der motivations langsung, nak kata bz kat office ni, not really, now lagi holiday mood, cause the boss is on holiday :)

Many things to story mory....but dont know where to start.  Will just start with my freaking out medical issues.

When we dah berumur ni macam-macam boleh berlaku kan.  Especially our health conditions.  The past months I noticed that my hormones ni dah over sikit, meaning if I hv my period dah macam tap water, not only that, with the blood clot yg sebesar paru 1/2 kg ok...no jokes, this is very serious.  Pernah satu hari tu, I went to the toilet lah nak tukar pad, than I rasa macam something came out macam very fast, macam rasa give birth pulak. Than when I looked at it, mak ai besarnyer darah beku, I was like shocked lah kan, macam terus pitam.  So decided the next day must go n see doctor.

This is how it looks like...oh this is not mine lah, tak kan nak snap pic pulak kan...thanks to Google :)

So I went to see Doctor, government clinic jer, nowadays medical very expensive, so lets just bedal Government clinic dulu lah.

Blah blah blah, explaining to the doctor my problem, I was asked to go for a scan + scopic (dari bawah ok).
And also baru lah I realize after I went for a blood test on the same day, I have :

• Anemia - a decrease in the number of red blood cells (RBC), which may lead to low red blood count. 

The treatment for Anemia, either I have to go for blood transfusion or can try and take more Calcium n Vitamin C  for a start.  If it doest improve, than I have to go for blood transfusion.  Well for this I am still taking the medications, it's better and will just continue with it.  

Ok, back to my scan results, doctor diagnose that I have a fibroid which is about 3.5cm and  also something that they could not detect which is dekat kawasan rahim.  So the solutions is, I have to go and see a gynae to make a thorough check.

Date was set for me to go n see a gynae at KKH, it was on the 15/11/2012.  This time I am really freaking out ok, sebabnye if dah sampai go to hospital, confirm lah macam anak ayam nanti, I ni kan very the penakut bab seluk-seluk ni, haha.

OK, I went to KKH with hubby, he took leave to accompany me, actually I told him tak payah lah, let me go sendiri, but he insist, than ok lah ada orang nak teman why not kan.  M lucky, even its a subsidize clinic but I got this amazing specialist, mat salleh doctor, she was gentle and friendly ok and memang baik sangat untuk akak yang penakut ni.  Well, went in and told her abt the scan results and all the stories, than after all her explainations, she wanted to do a vagina scan and do some test. 

Something like this, cause intrument macam sama, sanggup google 

Okay, this part yg I really-really wanted to cry ya,cause I m freaking takut sangat sampai I genggam lengan doctor to kuat-kuat.  She was so gentle and even told me stories sampai I tak rasa benda tu dah masuk.  One done than she said ok dear, I need to put in my finger just to check...wattttttttttttttttt.....huwarghhhhh, cold sweat masyaallah, macam nak lari jer lah.  Frankly I memang takut sangat pasal ni semua, dari mengandung anak pertama sampai yg ketiga, n sampai now lah, memang sangat takut.  Anyway, I redha lah, dah nak kenek seluk, nak buat camner kan, so ok, lagi skali I genggam lengan doctor tu sekuat-kuatnye.  Macam nak masukkan apa, padahal cuma doctor wanted to check and ambik some sample to do a Cancer test.

When all done, I was so relieved sangat, macam baru lepas perang, thou kat dalam tu aircon full blast but m sweating.  

Continue with the chit-chatting, results will be out in few weeks time, n she had suggested few things for me before further things terbongkar.

For the heavy mensus flow, she suggested 3 things, to take medications, to use IUD or to go for holes surgery to remove the uterus (meaning I will not have mensus anymore, so no more buying of KOTEK)

Of course I chose no. 1 to try on the medications first, if it doesnt work, than will look at the other 2 options.  Which the doctor also think its wise of me to choose the first one :):)

And alhamdulillah, just got my mensus,took the medications for my 1st and 2nd day, the blood flow was normal , really under control, thou there are blood clots, but its the norm.  I am super happy, looks like the medicine works so far.

And now only waiting for my scan results, any urgency or not it will be send via sms and will be mailed also. So next appointmnet to see doctor for follow up will be in Jan 2013.

The results came on 20/11/2012, that was fast via sms..................TO BE CONTINUED....penat menaip

Dear frens I will sambung with this story soon ok, another freaking news yg membuat I lesu tak bermaya ':(

Assalammualaikum.............

DEAR BLOG....

Dear blog.....I mishhhhh uuuuu....miss updating lately, I really really hv no ideas what to blog about...thou there are many things but m clueless...why izzit this way...is it because I really have to stop blogging or its just one of those malazzzz mood to think of what to write here.

Well anyway...my 3 precious latest photo for me to update here will do it for now...n to uolzzzz that came by to visit this blog of mine..............HAPPY WEEKENDS...FOR SURE SOME ARE GOING FOR LONG HOLIDAY HAA...ENJOY EVERY MOMENT OF IT WITH LOTS N LOTS OF LUV YA....ASSALAMMUALAIKUM :):)

COTI AIDIL ADHA....

Assalammualaikum uolzzz...dah macam mak Jemah kan uolzzzzzz dari ERA....

I cant wait for the wkends to come, because its a long holiday for me.....N m so loving it cause I nak relaks di rumah sepuas-puasnye.  I think same goes to those yg slalu berulang-alik hari-hari dari JB to Sin to n fro, if opportunity like this, tak sabar rasanye untuk merehatkan diri yg dah terlalu capekkkkk berulang-aling menempuh hiruk-pikuk di Causeway :)  So to those yg tak work on Saturday, apalagi, long holiday lah kan.

As for me, this Saturday was supposed to be my work day, but since I dah replace last Saturday, so m relieveeeee....but still, thou resting, need to do revision with Aqil cause his exam is not over yet.  But small matter lah, we r just going to enjoy the study bonding time together at home.

Anyway, sempena nak menyambut Aidil Adha yg bakal menjelang tiba ni, me wishing semua umat islam tak kira di mana sahaja, ter-especially yg berada di Makkah, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA UNTUK SEMUA....

Last but not least, to all yg akan pulang ke kampung untuk beraya tu, berhati-hati semasa memandu semuga semuanye selamat ke destinasi yg hendak di tuju ok.....ENJOY THE HOLIDAY UOLZZZZZZ.

WKENDS....

Hi Assalammualaikum....hv been out of the office for 2 days, was not feeling good, but today on Saturday I hv to be here in this boring office..still recovering and feeling week after 2 days of resting at home.

Anyway, have a great wkends to uolzzz ya...enjoy the wkends :):)

WHO IS SHE :)

Nur (Cahaya) Madarina (Tempat Peredaran Bintang)...the given name to my 2nd doter.  She is now 18 years old and my doter yg tersangat high maintenance for her.  Her mother pun tak lah sangat high maintenance.

Anyway, just felt like blogging about her.  I got this photo of her from her FB, entah mana she got this, when she was young dah pandai nak bermake-up, adorable kan tapi yg paling rabakkkkk kalau crying when she was small.

Well now dah pun membesar, a sweet young gurl with a big dreamzzzz...a dream to be a top model....hehehe, itulah kata-kata dia, as a mother, of course I want the best for my kids, insyaallah selagi apa yg di lalukan tidak menyalahi ugama dan mencari rezki yg halal.

Showing some of her photoshoot that was in her portfolio. Bergedik sana n bergedik sini, not bad jugak anak ibu sorang ni, ada talent yg tersembunyi.

Make-up done on her own, hw is she good in make-up..........U TUBE....if at home itu lah kerja dia kat rumah, cari any info about beauty kat U-tube..goggle sana sini.

Her pic without make-up and with her long hair that she is missing now...

Her recent pic with short hair...

Watever dreams she has, she has to finish her school first, thats the major thing I want her to fulfill and for now part-time modelling will only be allowed for her.

If possible, I prefer her to model for bridal, at least tak lah risau hati ni, sopan sikit kan bermodelkan busana pengantin.  Tapi they have to go through me lah, I kan manager dia :):)

So ini lah puteri hati me yg kedua, will blog about puteri hati yg pertama bila tiba masanye.

Oh almost 12pm....lunch time soon...when its lunch, means its Adam & Hawa time at Dailymotion.

Assalammualaikum uolzzzzzz.....

WAT I MEAN BY MASSIVE....

Vahhhhh  semangat lah nak berblogging, early morning the idea what to blog about dah mari...so dengan pantas log-in and start to blog before idea gone and malazzzz also datang.

Anyway just to imbas kembali for the past 2 years what I have been through, going in and out without failed with the heavy or at times very massive to travel in and out to Singapore and JB.  Its very tough, for those yg temperamental my advise tak payah lah stay in JB if you have to travel to n fro everyday, cause akan menambahkan dosa yg dah ada tu kan, dengan maki hamun n aper-aper lagi sumpah seranah yg kluar tu.  So stay where u feel comfortable without having to go through like the photos below.  What M going to show is sikit jer ni, photos pun I google jer, the actual will be worst lah from this at times......

This photo going through Sin Chkpoint 

At JB bridge going through JB Chkpoint

This traffic from Sin to JB and JB to Sin - everyday scene 

Massive traffic from the highway going to Sin Chkpoint

Night view of the traffic congestion all the way from highway to Sin chkpoint

Bikers that are stuck in the traffic, beribu bikers will b like this everyday

Well, ini lah scene-scene yg slalu I have to go through setiap hari, be it in the morning or in the evening, nowadays it seems that there isnt any time yg tak jam, almost everyday and at all times its like this, so just imagine what m going through everyday, n also hw the others yg can tolerate this everyday.....it takes courage and patience to go through this, it really is......

So M still in dilemma.......to come back or not.........it will be decided by next year in 2013 once contract for both side ends.

EXAM FEVER...

Assalammualaikum....uishhhhh nak berjinak balik berblogging, but doesnt seems to know hw to start.

Really clueless, like I cant write a simple story at all and cant think of what to write also.

So since its the exam month, I decided to post this photo of naughty boy here yg dah ready sangat with his exam next week onwards.

This is the pic yg I can upload here in the office, cause I didnt bring my hp USB cable.  This boy, yg tak lama lagi nak celebrate his 9th bday, is in P3.

When I asked him...Aqil u ready for your exam....simple answer......sudahhh lahhh ibu, dont keep asking me can...so itu lah dia my one and only son yg dah tersangat ready with his upcoming exam.  All oral, listening compre and compo semua dah habis last week, now 3 days closure for PSLE Marking and next week will be all the other papers.

M hoping he can make it insyaallah, because since we shifted to JB pelajaran dia agak terganggu sikit, I think because of the journey that we always faced to n fro, n by the time we reached home its almost time to eat n sleep.  Its worrying me lah, but m hoping for the best.  Me pun nak ulangkaji his sch work at home frm Mon to Fri memang dah tak sempat, too tired by the time we reached home.  Wkends pun jarang can spend time with him studying.   Mudah-mudahan Allah terangkan hati anak bujang I ni semasa exam nanti, insyaallah.

Looking into the situations, most probably we will come back to Singapore next yr, masih dalam perancangan lagi.  The gurls memang excited giler nak balik SG, n Aqil too...so we will c hw it goes next yr.  Two years in JB, alhamdulillah we can adapt but cuma the kids tak der life at all, including me :(.  Too hectic for us everyday to travel and the kids especially Aqil always missed activitites at sch cause we hv to rush home almost everyday. N for me I cant even stay late at work, which is also not a good sign for me if I want to stay long with the Company.

So we will wait for both contract in SG and JB to end next year, n we will c hw it goes.  About 70% we dah confirm nak come back to SG....hopefully decision will be made early next year.  Actually I pun macam tak sabar nak balik SG, macam dah penat sangat mengharungi traffic jam in the morning and evening. Its very tiring, I wonder hw other SG yg dah bertahun tinggal di JB boleh go through this because perlukan kesabaran yg betul-betul to the max to go through this.  I had it for almost 2 yrs now, n dah tak der kesabaran..haizzzzzz....now excited to come back to SG, last yr excited to migrate to JB, now the other way round, macam tak der kerja lain, asyik nak pindah randah, lucky my house here still available, if not duduk jer in JB and endure.

Well anyway, to all dear  frens yg the kids are taking final exam this yr.....my prayers are with them, semuga semua berjaya mendapat markah yg cemerlang, aminnnnnn.

Wowww bleh tahan jugak my entry ni, well for a start lah kan, insyaallah when time permits more story to write, cuma hoping blogger frens will read again my entry like before :)

Assalammualaikum....

HI ITS MEEEE...

Assalammualaikum to all.............goshhhh its been sometimes since I wanted to write stories...anyway blogger got the new look also, the format is so different till I a bit blurr for a while.

Anyway, just drop by here at my own blog to say hi n hi....n post some of my recent pics :):)

Have a great wkends to all ya...cheerssss :):)

THE TRIPLE ME

Assalammualaikum...:):)

Salam sayang semua...duhhhh been quite sometimes this blog dah di abaikan.  I almost forgot the password for it, few times log-in failed ':(

Felt like blogging again, missing everybodehhhh here but still contacting through FB.

Lots n lots of things to story mory, be it sad, happy and missing lots of stories from bloggers.

Will try to start updating if time permits and for now, this is for all who is still visiting me here...cheers...