ASSALAMMUALAIKUM ...........
Apakan lagi untuk menjenguk kesana kemari, menziarahi blog frens yg ku sayangi......hai lah, when will the time comes for me to get back on track.
Sumtimes when the urged to blog is there, I log-in, post an entry than save it in the draft.....it will be in the draft folder for few days, I will log-in again and delete all.............why cant I be like before, blogging was once my passions, my daily must to do to make sure its updated, but now its just gone without knowing why...............can someone tell me why........or do I hv the answer myself. I just loose that interest, but deep in my heart I felt something, its just not me.
I laughed, I smiled, does that means I am feeling happy........can I show the unhapiness in me, may be now I can pretend, but how long can it last...............not for long I dont think so.
There are times that I told myself, why I made this decisions, what happened to the real me, the real person who is strong enough to stand on her own feet, be herself, act rational, do not hesitate, dont turn back..............where is that person now????????????
Di sebalik ketenangan dan ape yg aku hadapi serta alami sekarang, I sometimes felt that I am not being truthful to myself, I am hurting myself and without realizing it dalam diam aku dapat merasakan kesedihan dan tanda tanye yg tak terungkap lagi...........and I do realized that this will hurt me more, akan memakan diri ku sendiri.
Haruskan ada peluang lagi untuk ku, untuk kami, atau ini semua adelah kepura-puraan semata dari kedua pihak yg hanya memikirkan tentang kebahgian orang-orang di sekelilingnye.............
N now I can only hope......................
Dimana hendak ku luahkan segala perasaan lagi kalau tidak di moralle blogspot ni....lama rasanye ku biarkan ia tidak bertuan.........I tried to update but I just dont hv that motivations that I used to have before.
Apakan lagi untuk menjenguk kesana kemari, menziarahi blog frens yg ku sayangi......hai lah, when will the time comes for me to get back on track.
Sumtimes when the urged to blog is there, I log-in, post an entry than save it in the draft.....it will be in the draft folder for few days, I will log-in again and delete all.............why cant I be like before, blogging was once my passions, my daily must to do to make sure its updated, but now its just gone without knowing why...............can someone tell me why........or do I hv the answer myself. I just loose that interest, but deep in my heart I felt something, its just not me.
I laughed, I smiled, does that means I am feeling happy........can I show the unhapiness in me, may be now I can pretend, but how long can it last...............not for long I dont think so.
There are times that I told myself, why I made this decisions, what happened to the real me, the real person who is strong enough to stand on her own feet, be herself, act rational, do not hesitate, dont turn back..............where is that person now????????????
Di sebalik ketenangan dan ape yg aku hadapi serta alami sekarang, I sometimes felt that I am not being truthful to myself, I am hurting myself and without realizing it dalam diam aku dapat merasakan kesedihan dan tanda tanye yg tak terungkap lagi...........and I do realized that this will hurt me more, akan memakan diri ku sendiri.
Haruskan ada peluang lagi untuk ku, untuk kami, atau ini semua adelah kepura-puraan semata dari kedua pihak yg hanya memikirkan tentang kebahgian orang-orang di sekelilingnye.............
N now I can only hope......................
"Love is built on hope. Sure it is filled with risk and with disappointment, but it is still something that gives your life a greater meaning."
