WHAT THE HACK.................

No matter hw I rushed, I still cant get everything complete by today.

To many things to settle. My Accounts for June, GST submissions by this month. Manpower Issues, Advertisements and the best is Human related issues. I thought after Matilda took over some of my responsibilites, I will be hooray hooray a bit, but it doesnt looks like it.

How clever my boss is, I got an increment last month, and he increased my work also, hmmmmmmm i dont loike it at all ):

Bit of update on what I did on Saturday and Sunday :

I went to visit my brother at his house with Hubby, Aqil Umi and Abi in the evening. The two girls dont want to follow, to tired agaknye, lagipun they hv Madrasah earlier.

When we reached there my SIL is about to drain my brother dialysis water from him kidney than change it to a new Peritoneal dialysis water. My brother has to be on dialysis since he was discharged from Hospital. Its like 4 to 5 times a day. I knew a bit about kidney patients caused I ever worked with Baxter Healthcare for 8 years. Baxter is specialized for Kidney dialysis patients.


My brother looks week as usual, no improvement, now depending on the dialysis. We can only berdoa that he will recover soon, Insyaallah.

Chit-chat a while with my SIL, she explains how she took care of my brother, the cost involved for dialysis, tentang hal anak-anak yg tak bertanggungjawab, I am really sad to hear. At the same time I am very very angry with my anak-anak sedara. Me and sis will help sebanyak mana yg kite mampu, we all pun hv our own responsibilities, insyaallah we will visit him often untuk memberikan bantuan yg termampu.

We left my brother place about 8pm. Abi felt hungry so we went to Teh Tarik to tapau some foods back. Dinner is paid by my sis as a thanks to drive her & Abi to brother house :)


Sunday is to kadaq tidur and relaks-relaks at home. Hubby still need to work, cian hubby. Woke-up, house cleaning a bit than cooked lunch. Lemak sayur, sambal udang and fried fish. Hmmmmm yummy yummy :)

Yesterday night while waiting for Incredible Tales shows at 10pm, we received called from Umi. She needs help from hubby to sent Abi to hospital. Abi kenek sesak nafas lagi.

Kelam kabut jugak hubby siap-siap and went to Umi house. Lucky our house are not that far apart, hubby drove Abi car to sent him with Umi.

Hubby came back about 11.30pm, he didnt wait for Umi caused BIL kenek observation dulu. At about 2.00am Umi sms, Abi had to be warded again, his heart beat not stable.

This week will be difficult week for me. Umi had to stay overnight at the hospital. According to doctor someone need to be around with Abi, takut-takut dia kenek serangan lagi.

So I hv to bring Aqil to work from tomorrow onwards than send him to school at 1pm. Petang pulak the two girls will fetch him back from school.

Mudah-mudah semuanye akan berjalan dengan lancar dan Abi akan cepat sembuh.

ANGRY AND LAZY DISEASE.............

Really not in the mood today. From morning until now, lazy, worried and angry feelings at one go.

Monday bluesssss.........this is more than bluesssssssss.

I've been quiet since morning, didnt talk much to anybody at the office. I'm really not in the mood to talk, felt very lazy to talk to anyone.

I'm worried thinking of my 3 kids at home. Today Aqil is taken care by his 2 sisters. Umi cant take care of him, she needs to go to Hospital to look after my BIL. I understand the situation of course but just worried thinking of my 3 kids at home. Lucky today school is closed for youth day, if not I hv to bring Aqil to work today and send him to school from work. I went back home a while during lunch just to check on them and had lunch with them at home. Kebetualan hubby called to tell me that he bought lunch for the kids and wants me to join him at home to hv lunch with them.

And I'm angry with someone. That someone is my brother, I had another brother which is about 5 yrs older than me. He is really pain in the ??? I dont want to elaborate about what had happened to us in my blog about him, he made me very mad at him since day 1 my elder brother was sick until today or to be precised since 2 months ago. It didnt really matter much to me anyway, thou he is my brother, but when I received SMS from him this morning, and when I tried to confront him about his behaviour, I could hardly control my anger towards him. We exchanged harshed sms to each other and he is really making me very mad. I used vulgar words towards him which I have never before. OMG!!!!!!!!!!! I am really out of control over my anger towards him.

I called my sis at the hospital, I cried over the phone tersedu-sedan telling my sis about what had happened. I told her that what I am trying to do is to get an answer from him why he did all these to us his own flesh and blood. What have we done wrong to him............. I still didnt get any answer from him......he discontinued the sms and didnt reply to me at all.

I know sis understand that I meant well for everyone, being the youngest in the family, I just want all of us to be together like before. Our parents dah tak de, yg tinggal cuma kite adik beradik, susah senang, suka duka selain keluarga sendiri, adik beradik lah tempat kite mengadu nasib. Especially me, slalu mencari-cari kasih sayang abang dan kakak untuk mengadu kerana terlalu rindukan arwah my mon and dad. My sis is always there for me, my brother to, but he had changed, I dont understand why??????????

Furthermore Puasa and Hari Raya pun nak dekat. I have to do something, to get this family back together again, I want to help him, but how, how can I help him if he is behaving very strangely towards us. "Ya allah tunjukkan lah jalan kepada hamba mu ini, ya allah, berikan hamba mu ini kekuatan untuk menyatukan kami kembali"

ANOTHER BZ DAY...........AND STILL WORRIED

I'm actually not in the mood to update this blog of mine, lots of reasons behind it. Firstly, I was really really bz with works in the office, rush out a while to meet Aqil teacher for parents teacher session (alhamdulillah, Aqil had improved tremendously compared to previous meeting with his teacher early this year) , rush out to the bank, rushing out workers insurance matter which is still not settle, lots & lots of other things to think off, but the most important thing is my brother conditions.

I tak sempat nak menjenguk my brother yesterday, insyaallah will visit him tonight. But I called my nephew to ask abt my brother conditions. He is not getting better, the doctor will send him for dialysis caused his body parts dah membengkak due to his kidney, n his private parts not getting better, still swollen jugak, and he is having difficulty breathing due to swollen part at his private part. He was sent back to the CCU unit due to all these reasons.

I m really worried about his conditions, walaupun dah slalu jugak my brother ni berulang alik masuk hospital, but this time terlalu critical masaalahnye. Walau apepun, I tetap berdoa agar my brother cepat melalui masa critical ini dan akan cepat sembuh walaupun tak sempurna mana. I cant imagine how he is suffering right now.

To all frens that left comments with doa's for my brother, thanks a million, mudah-mudahan dengan berkat doa semua, my brother akan cepat sembuh, AMINNNNNNNNN.

I would like to share with all picture of my brother yg sedang uzur di hospital, this was taken 1 mth ago during bday celebration for his 3rd cucu, Ayuni at East Coast Park.

"To my brother, walaupun kite slalu berlainan pendapat dalam segala hal, I will always love u and will always mendoakan kesihatan dan kesembuhan abang"