Sadness in my life melanda terus menerus. One after another. I tried to look happy, cheerful but my heart is fulled of sadness and I felt miserable most of the times. At times hubby need to comfort me like small kids longing for someone to listen to me and caress me. I am very lucky to have understanding and loving husband who knows what I need and when I need it.
I am sad enough thinking about my brother behaviour that I cant tolerate at all. At times or almost everytime when I read about people having good times together with their parents, celebrating Bday, mothers or fathers day, cried on their parents shoulder when they have problems. I missed all that, I missed my mom and dad. How I wished I could turned back the clocked and made my parents happy like other parents. There were lots of sad memories, hurtful memories between us which I will always remembered for the rest of my life.
I really hope that arwah my parents dapat merestui my life now and hoped that they had forgiven me sebelum mereka pergi. Being the youngest in the family, I know and they knows it too that I hv never menyusahkan mereka, anything I want I will get it myself, susah senang it will be me alone and will never get them involved.
Like what others felt about their parents, I felt that my parents is the best in this world, pasangan yg tegar mengharungi kehidupan walau apepun rintangan yg mereka hadapi.
Hubby came across my mum & dad photo in one of our album. This photo of them made me want to post entry yg sedih ni, caused I missed them so so so muchhhhhhhhh.....................