...3/9/2008...

Yesterday night I wanted to do an autopublish for this entry, but when I dodoikan Aqil to sleep, dengan I sekali terdodoi, sadar-sadar its time to sahur already. Today I hv to update it bit by bit cause my boss early morning already in the office, so I curi-curi to update it.

Its our 19th Anniversary today, for me MORALLE and MR M.

Mr M is going to read this entry when he comes back from work tonight, I told him that I’m going to make a special dedication for our 19th Anniversary and he wants to read it okayyy, so I’m going to make it as perfect as possible :)

19 yrs with Mr M, the man that I will love forever and ever, insyaallah. Kami telah di kurniakan with 3 children, 2 pwetty and sweet girls and our handsome Aqil :) Anak-anak yg akan menjadi kebanggaan kami di masa hadapan, insyaallah.

A story 19 yrs ago, we met each other at a unique place and me working at a unique environment, tak yah elaborate this lah, very malu. Back than Mr M is still serving his National Service. It all started that night, he was there at this place with his frens. I was working till night so he offered to fetch me home that night. I accepted his offer immediately, padahal baru jer berkenalan. He has his charmed :) I guessed………..

Throughout the relationship I was very happy with him, he is a caring and loving person. Thou he is also a very temperamental person, but because of our strong love towards each other we managed to overcome all obstacles.

The boyfren girlfren relationship went on only for 6 mths and we decided to get engaged, bertunangan. The engagement period was very tough for both of us. We quarreled almost every week. We are still young and both of us panas baran. Almost tiny miny things will make us quarreled with each other. Inilah yg di kata kan dugaan semasa dalam pertunangan. Jealously, the main topics when we quarreled.

We end the engagement period within 2 yrs, we got married, 3/9/1989. Its been tough for me. Walaupun I’m the youngest in the family, but I hv to work very hard for my own wedding. There are lots of things going on in my family, to cut the story short, I don’t want to susahkan my siblings with my wedding arrangement, so I worked hard just to get married to Mr M. Alhamdulillah I managed to pull through and saved enough $$$$ for my wedding.

Our marriage life was also full of obstacles. When I’m really in need of someone to talk to, like my mum, but she is no longer around. My mum passed away 2 yrs after I got married in 1991 followed by my dad in 1994. We went through banyak onak dan duri, and that made our love grew stronger towards each other.

We had our new house after a yr of marriage, saat paling susah, maklumlah, we kan very young and at that time saving pun tak der lagi, so ni kira macam terjun botol nak kawin :) We shifted in an empty house, not fully renovated and without any furniture inside, except for our bed set, lagipun I yg nak pindah cepat, caused we hv issues with my sister in-law. We learned to berjimat cermat, work hard to build our castle together. Alhamdullillah, rumah pertama kami adelah syurga for us, and that is where we had Kak Yana and Arin………….

Masaalah kami tetap ade when I was pregnant with Yana. Allah betul-betul menguji kesabaran I as a wife and daughter in-law. Bayangkan di saat me mendambakan kasih sayang seorang ibu, but I merasa begitu tertekan sekali dengan my MIL. But I always remembered what my mum used to say before she passed away, “Mar, kalau dah jadi isteri orang, kite mesti slalu setia pada suami, sabar dengan ape jugak dugaan, jaga hati mentua, lakukan yg terbaik, kehidupan orang berumah tangga ni bukan senang, jangan ingat bila dah kahwin semua masaalah selesai” till today I will always remembered those words.

Live has to go on sehingga Arin and Aqil lahir. Being a father to 3 kids and hubby to me, I bersyukur kerana anak2 and myself di kurniakan dengan seorang ayah dan suami yg bertanggungjawab. Wife and kids comes first, biar dia berbogel sekalipun, tetap kami yg di dulukan. Sebaik mungkin he will make us happy and walaupun he has to struggle, he will make sure isteri dan anak2nyer mendapat yg terbaik dan sentiasa happy.

Kami tempuh segala dugaan, susah senang, suka duka sebagai sepasang suami isteri sehingga lah kehari ini di mana kami masih tetap bersama, alhamdulillah.

TO MY DEAREST HUBBY, HAPPY 19TH ANNIVERSARY, SEMUGA PERKAHWINAN KITE AKAN TETAP BERKEKALAN SEHINGGA KE AKHIR HAYAT, INSYAALLAH.

U AND THE KIDS R EVERYTHING TO ME AND I WILL CHERISHED EVERY MOMENTS WE SPEND TOGETHER FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.